Wednesday, July 3, 2002 "Night Moods"

From: "gspencer"
To: "Mac Stryper"
Subject: "Night moods . . .

". . . working on those night moods, looking for the right moves, nothing left to lose." - paraphrasing Bob Seeger.

Hey MySteveMan!

I'm glad our timing was good last night. I am glad Joe's timing was good, I am glad your timing was good. There is nothing like divine intervention to cue us into taking action and taking stock. It sounds like you had a very good night; abeit sleepless after Seattle (Starbucks, forgive me).

No pictures yet, though, you have not had the time to work on them and that is a good thing. Focus, decisions, actions. It's not a wren in the window this time or on the pavement at Chicago and Wabash picking crumbs from a muffin. It's you, it's another Steven Rhodes; he represents's millions of young lads who never had a chance at survival, at life or at love.

He's a reminder of a failed Spencer who let George/Jorge go because Spencer couldn't deal with cleaning up the mess if he couldn't kiss the boy on his mouth and tell him he loved him. I'd say I'd burn in hell for that but I know I won't, its an finite number of chances in an infinite number of lives and times. He's a reminder of many boys over whom I bruised my soul.

In this case, he is your charge. I'll help watch, I will help as much as I can since he's part of your life, you are a part of mine; my loving you is my loving him, my loving DH, my loving the Mayor, my loving your friend Dodie.

You had quite a successful day; back massage, soul massage, job interviews, work, employment, learning curves and curbs. Whew. I am on to the morning routine and out to work. Y'all have a great day.

Huggs and love for MySteveMan and JoeMark (hopefully losing the Mark part and putting back the Paul part, [Joseph Paul Greene] another JP! Juan-Pablo/Joseph Paul)."

:Spencer